The Duality of Grief
I have often written about the duality of grief. The joy of milestones and holidays is so often overshadowed by the sadness of loss. As...
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nicole melamed
May 232 min read
8 Years
I often find myself dividing time into two distinct periods: "Before his death" and "After his death." This framework has come to define...
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nicole melamed
Apr 82 min read
A Different Kind of Grief
There is a wholly and completely different kind of grief that begins to happen after the dust settles on a loved one’s passing. One that...
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nicole melamed
Nov 6, 20232 min read
Say His Name
A friend mentioned to me the other day that her husband was talking about my late husband. The feeling of love enveloped me, and the...
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nicole melamed
Aug 16, 20232 min read
High Anxiety
High Anxiety… I never saw the movie, but I can certainly relate to the title. These past seven years, I have found many helpful ways to...
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nicole melamed
Aug 3, 20232 min read
My Dad
8/3/23 A few things about my dad: my earliest memory of him was driving around Queens, a Marlboro red in one hand, the other on the...
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nicole melamed
Jul 17, 20232 min read
The Worst Thing...
The worst thing that has ever happened to me has become the thing that I am most grateful for. I recently heard someone say this during...
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nicole melamed
Aug 22, 20222 min read
The Signs
A few weeks ago, a close friend lost her father, she was grieving and said to me, “How do you know when there is a sign”? I wouldn’t say...
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nicole melamed
Jun 11, 20202 min read
Another Year Another Fathers Day
06/12/2020 As soon as Memorial Day rolls around, I know it coming. The influx of commercial propaganda about Father’s Day. It slams me...
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nicole melamed
May 4, 20202 min read
A Letter To My Children
5/5/2020 To my beautiful children, Although today is not Daddy’s actual Yahrzeit, I often feel, to some extent, it is. Four years ago...
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nicole melamed
Dec 17, 20193 min read
Grief Follows Me Everywhere
12/17/19 Thanksgiving has been the most challenging holiday for me since my husband passed 3.5 years ago. It has been the hardest...
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nicole melamed
Nov 7, 20192 min read
A Birthday Card to My Late Husband
11/7/19 One of my most treasured possessions are cards, cards that my husband wrote to me over the years. He didn’t just give me cards on...
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nicole melamed
Oct 14, 20192 min read
Turning Fifty
10/15/2019 My husband died when he was fifty. To say that this is a milestone I’ve been looking forward to would simply be false for...
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nicole melamed
Sep 2, 20192 min read
A Letter to My Daughter on The Eve of Her 18th Birthday
9/30/19 Dear Olivia, This is not the letter I envisioned writing to you 18 years ago. The letter I most likely would have written you...
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nicole melamed
Jun 10, 20192 min read
My Short Road to Widowhood
6/10/2019 Some people become widows in the blink of an eye, a tragic accident or sudden death, and some become widows after what I can...
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nicole melamed
May 23, 20192 min read
Three Years
5/24/19 Tomorrow marks 3 years that you have been gone. Gone from this earth, from me and our beautiful children. The overwhelming...
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nicole melamed
Oct 17, 20182 min read
Moving Forward
10/18/18 I have a birthday approaching, my third birthday. The third one as a widow; I will be 49 this year. I still tend to separate...
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